Back :P

Too much for creative rest. Just want to say! The Bitch is back.. Wait I’m not a bitch.. But I can be a bitch If needed. Ok.. I’m rambling.. Not a very good start..

Today I have finally decided to come back from the virtual world and hoping to write something spontaneously about something.. As you might probably read by now.. I’m not getting any success from it.

I have recently realized how obsessive my personality can be. I didn't notice it before. Someone made me realize it. Which is defo true. Once I have attached myself into something or someone, its gonna be hell hard for me to let go. Maybe that's also the reason why its hard for me to invest emotionally, but once I do, I give it all. Which is exactly what is happening right now. Though I can't confirm or deny. But I hope If I am.. Someone or Anything will wake me up from this.. I'm blurring the line between reality from fantasy. I do hope for a drastic change. Change hasn't been a strong suit for me, but at least I get to move on and let go.
Geez. How pathetic.. Just listening to myself. Haha.

This morning I have come to realize an odd mannerisms that I do in my idle time. Weird and Pathetic. Don't worry nothing morbid or Kinky, haha. Have you ever lied in the bed one hand up in the air pretending like your hand is one giant pen and the ceiling is your big pad paper to write your random thoughts. I do. I find it weird that I do and often times I see myself doing it, which is weird, My bro thinks I’m crazy.. The hell I am! Been there done that!

So I haven’t been myself lately, not work related. OK I'm shutting up now. In fact Work has been pretty good lately.. No pressure. More relax and fun, bec of that I’ve been able to focus myself lately to work. Thank God! In addition to that matter a few weeks ago I had the courage to apply for this big promotion coming up. Pretty Big I’d say, More Bucks! but challenging.

I’m proud to say I got it. Now the challenge it to be good at it! Seriously I need that, It will help me focus more on what’s real. But TBH, I’m not excited. This is gonna be like a real challenge for me, and I hope I can do it!

BTW I have bought four books to read, I finally finished Angels and Demons! Which is mysteriously enjoying read. I’m now on the The Da Vinci Code, which is also quite interesting. I planned to re read LOTR but I decided to buy other books.. The Alchemist, 1984 by G. Orwell and Digital Fortress. I plan to finish that in a month, knowing my hectic schedule. Geez I barely get to sleep bec of reading, that also part of the reason I’m virtually absent at times, but then again its good, gives something to focus more on life.

Oh Mali and I went to the vet, he’s 2 months old but geez his bigger now. He likes to eat a LOT! So anyways he haven’t administered with Anti rabies yet bec of his age but we have an appointment this coming October. Mali’s getting on my nerves now! haha. He poops everywhere! Stupid Dog! Its not easy to take care of a puppy! haha. I plan to change his name to Gustov! Mali seems inappropriate.

I promise to have more stupid thoughts in the days to come.

These are just
my stupid thoughts.
Io devo andare..
Buona Notte. Ciao! :D
- R™

Hiatus

Resting. Gaining back my own creative self. No stupid thoughts are coming in. Haha. Welcome September. I can’t believe you’re here.

People are looking for something big enough to die for. Not finding that they’ll settle for comfort and pleasure.

One is the loneliest number.

Single adults adults are more intimacy-starved than sexually deprived.

Intimacy is a special thing. It requires time and risk and respect for other’s dignity.

Some people become workaholics because they don’t wish to face the fact that one is the loneliest number. We blame ourselves a lot for being lonely or we at least take it out on ourselves, making ourselves work harder or overeat.

To risk is to live dangerously, but it makes the ride more exciting.

Loneliness drives us to make desperate choices.

It’s best to look for intimacy and love from people who don’t demand sex along with it.

Moral courage separates the men from the boys.

The boys are left to learn the lessons of manhood from the worst of teachers: the street. Haha.

Maturity doesn’t come with age, it comes with acceptance of responsibility.

Paradoxically, Vulnerability is our power. When we let others have at us at a level where they could hurt us as if they chose, we lose the severity the denying our feelings bring. Repressed people are lonely, driven, controlling and functional people. They can not give out because they are not taking in.

 

-Purity Makes the Heart Grow Stronger: Sexuality and the Single Christian

 

 

These are just
my stupid thoughts.
Io devo andare..
Buona Notte. Ciao! :D
- R™