Vanity Card

1st ever Vanity Card for Dharma and Greg

Current mood: :(

Listening to Dirt album by Kids in Glass House Recommended!

I enjoy watching comedies. They are indeed like a black hole that will suck you from reality and make you happy once in a while. Either coming from a stressful day of work, or even your biggest personal worries, nothing beats a good laugh than any other medication there is.

Chuck Lorre is a the series creators for Two and a Half Men, Dharma and Greg and the Famous Geeks of The Big Bang Theory. Love these TV shows. They crack me up. One thing that I also look forward to in this comedies are the articles flashed on the screen right after the show ends. I used to pause the dvd just to read and I gotta admit its really cheeky and witty.

I didn't realize until now that those articles are what they call the Chuck Lorre Vanity Cards. Hey it even has the full copy from the very first vanity card from Dharma and Greg in the '90s. Hence, the image above.

I will be posting some of this vanity cards here from now on and if you want to know where you can find them. Just click here

These are just
my stupid thoughts.
Io devo andare..
Buona Notte. Ciao! :D
- R™

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The day you said Goodnight- Repost from Authentic Blog: September 9, 2005

It took me weeks to finally decide and obey what my heart has been telling me to do. Though my heart is ready, my mind in contrast cannot express the hidden strings of my heart. 

I can feel it, but I can not write it. Perhaps not all things can be expressed through writing.

I'd say I have enough memories of her not only in my mind, for some of then had led directly to my heart. Yeah. Some of them have hurt me, still I do not regret, for in those pains I can see some marks, living marks that can never be erased and would forever be in my heart.

I never thought of the possibility that we could be of what they are now, no I never thought of that. Not only once I thought we could never be like what couples usually do. We're friends and just like that, until I suddenly realized something that I never thought would happen to me.

I don't know, I was never that attracted to her (well not with the way she looks, she's beautiful I mean.) neither was in my mind the possibility that I would fall.

I was not really sure at that time, one thing that's for sure is that I love the coincident time we've spent together, the time that the world had given us, the time I use to recall up to this days.

The euphoria of missing her.

I never thought that those would eventually lead into something much more to what I call friendship. She never knows that, but I do, and at a certain point I was sure. She made me realize different things that I perhaps do not believe into, she gave this something that whenever each day pass makes me confident and makes her the best thing that my eyes could see.

With her I can see a different side of me, a better part of me. (Sounds like a song. LOL)

That night when I finally told her, I thought was the best day of my life, the angst, the butterflies and the energy within my self blurted out. At least in that way I have expressed the feelings that I have long been keeping. She never replied back. No she didn’t the only words that I received is goodnight I don't know what that means but that means a lot to me though I know she had a commitment with somebody else.

I know I couldn't have her, that wouldn't be that easy if I would and I know she doesn't love me and I have expected that.

From that day on, Being casual wasn’t considered normal and I think she feels the same way. For sometime she did not reply to my text, and then the sometimes become days until into months. I would never blame her she had a commitment, and I think she is happy about it. On a lighter side I'd say I'm happy about her too, at least she's happy--it's just not with me.

I continue to convince myself to forget her, but with all honesty I don't I keep on remembering her. I'd be a liar if I say I don't love her anymore.

I do still love her.

Every time that I see her pictures together with him there's a pinch and punch of hurting in my heart. Honestly, I feel jealousy and Pity.

I tried to avoid the things that would make feel sentimentally connected to her. Just to avoid my self from hatred and pity.

I just try to remember the text she gave me of which to her I can say do not have a double implication, but to me is a cure to my incompleteness. "If u wana end up w/d ryt 1 u've gotta make it happen. D best ones are alwys taken, if u don't steal them, u won't hav them!' just like that text I had never been erased in my inbox, perhaps i would still continue loving her, and perhaps would still continue to wait..

See you soon

For Amma. Rest in Peace wherever you are! REPOST from Authentic Blog: September 26, 2005
She died. 
The very thought of it is till playing in my mind, there's a tough speed of events that happened and whenever I think of it, I just can't believe she's gone. I don't know , the first time I saw her lying in the coffin made me realize something strange---for one moment I use to kid with her and then another moment, she's lying in the bed of death, cold.

I was never that close to her, specially considering the fact that she wasn't there when i grow up (but my brother does), in fact I was never that close to her. Due to some odd turn of events, she eventually had to move in to our house. At that time she is still strong and can still take care of herself, but even though the spaces between us were literally close, that didn't become an opportunity for us to become closer. I don't know maybe it wasn't her, maybe the problem is me. If I were to tell the truth at that time I don't care at all.

By the time that her strength is overcome by her ripe age, my family was obliged to take care of her fully...

The truth though I never really wanted to take care of her but I really don't have a choice. Not that I don't want her or anything, its just that there's always this certain gap that separate me from her.

Days had passed and to be honest I really don't like the idea of having her taken care of, but because my parents are not here, neither my guardians are not at all times there. I don't have a really, really have a choice.

The hours, days and even nights of boredom magically turned into something that I was not expecting to happen, maybe I pity her situation, being helpless and all.

As days go by, I was able to adapt with her, in fact there came a time that I need to bathe her, there's this time that I needed to fix her dirty diaper.

Eventually the nights of boredom lead into something much more meaningful.. For somehow I think.. I became close to her.

The nights were we exchanged stories bind the different personalities that opposes us.

The night before she died was something I don't really expect, I was about to go to a swimming party and of course because I really wanted to come, I went there to meet my longtime friends.

The party ended at midnight and I was able to went home by 2 am, when I came at our house, I heard her calling our names (she use to do it every time because maybe of boredom) and I did not mind her at all.

The next day when I woke up 1 pm, I was shock to see tears are coming from my aunties and cousin’s eyes.

The euphoria and goose bumps suddenly covered my entire body.

In fact I didn't know what to do.

By 2pm or something, beside her, I firmly held her hands with a thought on my mind this is the last thing that I can do for her. Maybe I can't rewind the things that happened before, but still to her last breath she knows that in the very short period that we have shared, I LOVED HER.

More than words

There are certain words we cannot express. There are something’s that are nowhere to describe. We can feel it but we find it hard to find ways of saying it.

 
Words are just too little to describe what you have always been praying to blurt out, but never have the courage to say so.
Words that for some might mean being fully vulnerable to someone you love.
Words that sometimes can change one moment of one's life, and even touch one of the others.
But here is the naked truth.
Not all words can say everything.
Not everything we say is true.
But what's most important is that you learn to know how genuine every little things, simple gesture, actions that find ways for two people to spend to know each other, to find ways to see each other differently.
It is not about the money, success, prestige or anything, but a way to show how much you really feel for someone.
They're just words.
Its more about what you really mean and how you really want to be part of someone's life, everyday though not forever but for the rest of our lives.
It beats out anything, more than any words that you can say.

Repost from Authentic blog: February 28, 2008

Inception

Now I'm gonna need my own Totem just to make sure that I have the full grasp of reality. If you have no idea what I'm talking about or any idea what totem means, you're clearly away from the buzz circling around the masterpiece of Christopher Nolan's Inception.

Did I even say masterpiece? Well that's understatement for this film. What really stands out is the fact that Nolan was able to creatively narrate one complex mind boggling idea into a film. I like that he has based his idea from something that is very hard to explain yet it has surprisingly captured and delivered what the movie theme is about. Nolan's the man. I bow to his talent, from Batman Begins, to The Prestige and The Dark Knight, and now Inception. Side note, I will be downloading Memento and Insomia which is a previous work of Nolan, I'm sure its good as the other work he had.

So if your one of those millions of people who already watched, I bet you heard and know the extractor, the point man, the architect, the forger and the chemist. So the basic concept of the movie is that a person can plant an idea in someone elses's mind by using dreams.

The reason why Dom Cobb (Leanorado De Caprio) is called the extractor is based on the fact that he is an mind stealer originally. What he does is that, he uses dreams to obtain certain information in someone's mind by going to its subconsciousness. Now the truth is that information is either known by the person or hiding in his subconciou mind. This is the reason why Dom is considered wanted and a fugitive.

Spinning Top: Totem

A Business man Saito (Ken Watanabe) rivals a dying Corporate Maurice Fischer (Pete Postlewaite) who will soon give his business inheritance to his son Robert Fischer (Cilian Murphy). Saito wants to stop to his monopolizing empire and to keep him out of the business. He then hires Dom to make sure that Robert does not carry on to his father's footsteps in building the monopoly making him The Mark of the mission.

Ergo the main idea of the film. Saito hires Dom to implant the idea into Robert's subconscious mind that his father wants him to make his own path, or to stop the monopoly. That's where the team of  Inceptionist arrives.

The opening scene of the movie was confusing at first. Seeing that idea is quite hard to digest.. but as the movie progresses, its quite the contrary. The one where Cobb and his team was trying to incept an idea into Saito's mind for trial purposes was just brilliant. I specifically love the scene where Cobb has to wake up from the dream as he falls into a water-full bath tub. Exciting effects and has a very creative interpretation. 

After failing with the architects of the trial run, Cobb has to find a better team for the same purpose. Now that's not the only reason why he needs a new team. Cobb has some interesting fallout's, because it appears that he can not control the epiphany of her deceased wife into every mission and exactly also the reason why the mission failed on the first trial.

Cobb hires the student Ariadne (Ellen Page) as the new architect, who will build the physical lay out of the dream. This the part of the movie where Cobb tries to explain to Ariadne what the basic concept of  Inception is, I like this part not only because me as an audience can relate to concept, but also because it made me think of the endless possibilities that our mind has. I like the idea that they have broaden my eyes a bit. I specifically like the explosion scene on the restaurant plus the part where Ariadne builds her own architecture where in the city went up side down. That was just an eye candy! Superb effects. Really.

Cobb also hires the forger Eames (Tom Hardy), whose main role is to forge himself in the dream and basically be somebody that The Mark knows in pushing him into that inceptioned idea. He's like a shape-shifter in dreams. In this case, Earnes forge himself as Robert's Godfather Peter Browning (Tom Berenger). The Chemist is Yusuf (Dileep Rao) what he does is combine a certain substance that will help the team in controlling the dream. What makes the movie more complicated is the theory that they can build a dream within a dream. In this case they have to go to 3 layers of dreams.

Christopher Nolan

The need to do 3 layers of dream is the due to the fact that The mark may see the difference between the dream from the reality, ie the architectural failure of the initial trial. This differences is manifested by the what they call Projections. The more that the mark sees these differences the more projections there are.

That's exactly the basic premise of the show. Now the most interesting and jaw breaking scenes were from the mission itself. Like I said, its 3 layers of dream. So that means 3 riveting action scenes. Haha. What I like about the first scene is the rigorous gun fight scenes plus the sudden train occurence. It was just heart pounding. The train which is a projection manifested by Dom's wife Malorie Cobb (Marion Cotillard) has compromised the mission in dream 1 thus making that scene Jaw Dropping.

The 2nd dream was about stepping up to the challenge which is mainly about the compromise in dream 1. Now what Dom has to do is to convince Robert that he is being followed by someone because they are trying to obtain certain information from his father's will. Robert agreed thus making the third dream possible. I like the 2nd dream because this is the part where they have Defy Gravity. Actor Joseph Gordon-Lewitt as Arthur did excellently in the stunts.or should I say the stuntman whatever. The synchronization of the Van from dream 1 to 2 was just so amazing. Its like Matrix 2.0 I love the idea of their bodies floating around as the van struggles from a freefall off a bridge. Excellent idea! 

The cast

So the time concept on each dream layers is totally different. 5 minutes in layer one, is like 20 minutes in layer 2, then it could be hours in layer 3. Now like what I said killing someone in multi layer dreams is no good at all. One could be stuck there for more than 10 years in Limbo without knowing how to differentiate reality from dreams. In a dream if you die, you wake up, but with multi layers of dream, if you die you'll be stuck in Limbo.

That's exactly the challenge is about in dream 3.. Dying. As projections of The mark increases, the more fatality becomes extreme. Although this scene is action packed. I'm not such  a fan of the dream 3 though maybe because of the snow setting. What I like was the challenge for Dom in the epiphany of Malorie sabotaging the the mission. Ergo killing Robert in the end. What the shocking part is they have to improvise setting up a dream 4 where Dom and Mal has spent time with in Limbo.

Dream 4 was a revelation of the relationship between Dom and Mal. It was revealed that it was Dom who planted the idea that their dream is a reality for Mal. Hence, when she woke up from the dream into the reality, it was hard for her to differentiate the two. Killing herself in the end, thinking she'll just wake up from another dream. 

The guilt of this realization from Dom's had became a burden for him thus making Mal a projection in every mission there is. In the end, Dom got stucked in Limbo together with  Saito who has been shot in dream 3 thus making him appearing old in the beginning of the movie. Dom looked for Saito in the end thus waking him up from a very long dream.

The film depicts that you can only know the difference of dreams from reality through a totem, which in Dom's way a spinning top. If top spins and i never ends you're in a dream, but if it stops then its reality. What's bothering me the most is the final image of the movie, showing a spinning top but was cut and never revealed if it did stop, thus making me wonder..  Is there a possibility that the Dom never woke up in his dreams and is still in Limbo? 

Very complex yet satisfactorily awesome. This kinds of movies are something that I look forward to.. Making me think.. and surprises me of things that has either never been thought of or ideas being rediscovered. Four out of  Four stars! If ever you wanna exercise your... brain a bit, Inception is the film for you. :D

BTW.. Marion Cotillard is HOT! 

15 hours

 woke up at around 11 pm by a sudden gust of wind outside. Usually by a cold weather like that I would cuddle up my bed and never even bother to wake up. But this was a different story. The wind is violently pounding the pane and my neighbors roof. I wondered if there's a storm which is kinda funny because the last time I watched the news was like a few weeks back. I never even bother to turn the TV on even if its just in my room. Nothing excites me there. This made me realize I have never even bother to see whats happening in the outside world. How Pathetic. Haha.

I had to check through the internet if there was a storm coming, and hell yeah there is.. I didn't even realize that the typhoon is now on Public Storm signal no. 2, Can you believe that? And Just as I was about to update my facebook page: 'Wag ka ma ba brown-out!' Digg this! The power went off. Unbelievable. Haha.

I have like more than 10 hours of sleep, gained energy and very wakeful, realizing that I don't have anything to do at all. Its dark and haven't eaten yet. How very unfortunate. So It turns out spending 8 hours wide awake listening to the raging winds and playing guitar is not bad.. You'll still live but will slowly drive you mad. Haha.

Lucky for me I didn't. Now the challenge when I woke up in the morning was finding a good way to spend my day. I just need to go OL for just a bit. I went from the market up to the city hall to find a internet cafe to waste my time with. It turns out it is a citywide black-out. Bummer! So I had to go back to the house and waste my time listening on the radio for the first time, only to find out from the news that the power will more likely be on for 2-3 days. WTF!

I decided to visit my relatives and noticed that while I'm on my way. Some roofs are damaged. Houses destroyed and even some source income for some people came to a halt. This was done by a public storm signal number 2, what more for 4? Dear GOD please don't. This somehow made me realize and appreciate the things that I have and so I am Thankful.

That was the story of typhoon Basyang.

In a different note, Today I had a great time/dinner with friends. We dined in and talked. Way to much laughter. FUN. It was almost fun until I remember walking from Caloocan to Edsa, it was something different though so I still enjoyed it. Haha. Here are some pics.

Sondre Lerche

So I felt of looking for a feel good movie to watch. I thought that Date night would be a good one. I bet it's fucking hilarious. But no DVD release yet or any clear dvdrip so far.

So I have decided to look into some of the movies that I like. Have you ever watched Dan in Real Life. It is a 2007 romantic family comedy starrring Steve Carell and Juliette Binoche.

Same love family drama but what differs is that its filled with heart warming scenes and excellent dialogues. Did I even say thatit has an amazing cast. Ofcourse the very hilarious Steve Carell, which BTW is really different from the Steve you see on TV. So Kudos to his more likely real characterization. Can you also believe that Amy Ryans, Dane Cook, Matthew Morrison and Emily Blunt are on this film? I love Brittany Robertson as well. Plus I love the Fall Season aura of the movie makes it more romantic and distinct.

I have to say this but this is the first time that I see Binoche likable in a movie. Haha. Sorry but I didn't like her before. Who wouldn't noticed the movies' unique and remarkable Soundtrack. Which in my opinion is what made the movie connect to the audience and appeal its central element which is Love.

Led by the Norwegian singer-songwriter Sondre Lerche, He's also a guitarist BTW an excellent one indeed. Listening to his music is just Gratifying. I'm hooked to all the songs in the album which is the Original Sountrack of the film. My fave so far: To Be Surprised, I'll Be OK, My Hands Are Shaking and Let my Love open the door. Here are the list of the songs: I have them complete on my iphone.

1. "Family Theme Waltz" - Sondre Lerche
2. "To Be Surprised" - Sondre Lerche
3. "I'll Be OK" - Sondre Lerche
4. "Dan and Marie Picking Hum" - Sondre Lerche
5. "My Hands Are Shaking" - Sondre Lerche
6. "Dan in Real Life" - Sondre Lerche
7. "Hell No" - Sondre Lerche and Regina Spektor
8. "Family Theme" - Sondre Lerche
9. "Fever" - A Fine Frenzy
10. "Airport Taxi Reception" - Sondre Lerche and The Faces Down Quartet
11. "Dan and Marie Melody" - Sondre Lerche
12. "Human Hands" - Sondre Lerche and The Faces Down Quartet
13. "I'll Be OK" (Instrumental Reprise) - Sondre Lerche
14. "Let My Love Open The Door" - Pete Townshend
15. "Dan and Marie Finale Theme" - Sondre Lerche
16. "Modern Nature" - Sondre Lerche and Lillian Samdal
17. "Ruthie Pigface Draper" (bonus track) - Dane Cook and Norbert Leo Butz, taken from a scene in the movie

Here's a youtube video of My hands are Shaking:

I'm gonna bore myself to death.

Well no plans this weekend. My friends are busy. So I have the pure luxury of editing my accounts via net. Seriously your never gonna believe how I was thoroughly filling them in. I'm glad that I have finally updated my Facebook, Blogger and Google Profile. Who would have thought boredom will make me accomplish something today atleast. haha. If you guys wanna know about me I'm just a click away: facebook here or google profile here.

I also had the chance to logged back in again into my friendster acct. which probably the last time that I may have been there was more than a year ago. Well what can say? Facebook is the new friendster. So I have thought of deleting the acct. while browsing through it, however nostalgia from HS days took over me from that moment, so I decided no to. One thing that irks me the most is the very layout itself, so boring, plus i get this spamful of messages about advertisements, which is hardly happening to me on facebook.

I'm boring myself again just discussing this stuff.

Ooh before i forget. The Academy of Television Arts and Science for the 62nd Primetime Emmy Awards has released their nominations. I gotta admit, I agree to almost all of the nominations as a matter of fact I'm please to say that most of the TV shows that I watch are being recognized. Kudos to LOST for garnering 12 Emmy nominations. Of course one of my top 5 programs includes the series premiere of The Good Wife, and some of the fan favorite comedy shows with Big Bang Theory, Two and a Half men, 30 Rock and The Office.

Who could forget the riveting performance of Matthew Fox as the dying Jack Shepard on the Lost Series Finale. Could he battle the Pillars of lead actors nominees for TV such as Hugh Laurie from House MD, or even Michael C. Hall as Dexter.

I salute The Good wife for giving a world class Justice Drama on TV supported by an ensembled Talented cast. Julianna Margulies really deserves an emmy for her truthful and convincing performance as the struggling lawyer balancing her way in being a good wife. My Favorite from the cast is the Indian Archie Panjabi as the Bi-sexual investigator Kalinda Sharma. Powerful acting plus charm, I wonder if she could beat out her fellow nominee Christine Baranski for the Drama's Supporting lead actress.

Lost and the Good wife are up against each other for Outstanding Drama Series together with True Blood, Madmen, Breaking Bad, and Dexter.

I'm glad to say that The Pacific is being recognized in several categories and I have no doubts it will win in the outstanding miniseries spot.

Amy Poehler and Tina fey are nominted for Outstanding Lead Actress for Comedy for Parks and Recreation and 30 Rock respectively. I love them both. While Jim Parsons, Steve Carrell and Alec Baldwin for Lead Actor for Comedy. I love their shows, and I think that their comedy is different from each other. I don't care whoever gets it, as long as its gonna be one of them.

This is interesting, Michael Emerson (Ben Linus) and Terry O'Quinn (John Locke) are up against the Outstanding supporting role for Drama. I bet its gonna be Terry this time.

Dig this! Allan Cummings (Eli Gold ), Dylan Baker (Colin Sweeney) both for The Good Wife and Elizabeth Mitchell (Juliet Burke) for Lost are all nominated for Outstanding Guest Actors for Drama. While Christine Baranski (Beverly Hofstadter) for Big bang is nominated for same category in Comedy. All I can say is that all these actors who guest starred in this series did an excellent performance whether Comedy or Drama. Cummings and Baker specially.

I'm proud to say that the Ab Aeterno episode is being recognized for Outstanding Art Direction For a Single- Camera Series. I have mentioned this before, it deserves an emmy, too bad Nestor Carbonell wasn't even nominated.

I sure hope all the people I've mentioned will win bec they all deserve it. Kudos to all the nominees and I am surely looking forward for the awards ceremony this coming August 29. Alright that's all for me right now.. What do you guys think? Do you agree? Anyways these are just my stupid thoughts.. I gtg..

Oneng

Glad to be back

Sorry I havent had time to blog again.. been busy. I thought after vacation ill be able to write stuff, but not. Anyways, a lot has happened and I have met some new friends. Its amazing. Plus I get to hang out with my old high school friends. We watched movies, partied and got wasted. Well the last the one might probably be on me only. I cant believe I got too much wasted to not remember things I've done. A first. Usually I can control my alcohol, but I had fun though. I feel like living and let going.

Oh and on a different matter in done watching the series finale of LOST. Sidelflashes being the purgatory was a bit overstretched. Really Darlton?? Shocker!! That was my guess by third season. Its such a shame the statue was never explained.. Whatever hapened to Richard anyways?? Over all the LOST Series finale is Excellent and Expected but not mind-blowing as we were usually satisfied in the past. It felt euphoric and nostalgic.. I Feel like there's more to tell on the story.

I have said that I am not fully satisfied with the Lost Season finale but what I'm glad of is that the writers have given thought about the characters Redemption and Resolution. I specifically liked the last scene where the dying Jack finally closes his eyes right after the plane has successfully departed from the Island. Sob sob.. Very nice touch.. I had goosebumps all over again.

Still, KUDOS to everyone who created Lost especially Darlton the men!

BTW, I have had the chance to jailbreak my iphone from 3.1 firmware to 3.1.3, haha i really love what i have found from sinful iphone repo. I got infinidock, infiniboard, five column Sb settings, ishrink and the one i like the most the Lock info. Its basically an app where it displays all your necessities on your phone like the the calendar, weather, sms, facebook and email notifactions, without even turning on the phone. It was nice until I recently noticed a sudden change in my battery's performance. It seems that the last time I have upgraded from 2.0 firmware to 3.0 up to the latest, my battery's been a problem for sometime. I followed tips online and hell yeah i did turned off the notifications and even lower the brightness of the phone. Which is really stupid bec after using it only for like an hour. I only have 10% battery, can you believe it? I gotta need another phone. haha. Well Thats my second goal after the portable :D

Speaking of Goals, As I have mentioned I have recently resigned from my 3 years of work. I'ts been crazy stressful yet fun years for me. Just a couple of months I have had the best vacation and parties I've had in my life. With Bora, Movie dates, Friends and did I say Booze! Hell Yeah It was crazy few months. Now at the verge of being responsible son that I am, haha Ive got to ofcourse look for another job. Which I recently have. I'm very glad thankful and proud to say that I got in. Not only do i get the chance to work into something that i really thought is fun.. But also I'm glad that I'll be able to work again with my colleagues whom I've had the pleasure and fun to work previously from the old company. Yes they are almost ALL in there..!

So as of this very moment I have 29 days before the stress kicks in again. I am trying to think of the things that I could have been doing that I haven't been doing because I'm too lazy of doing it. Haha. If I could think of anything real quick.. Badminton, Gym, Beach again!!, Travel outside Luzon, Intense Guitar lessons. Violin lessons, Read more books, Travel US, Food tripping, Smoking?, and oh did i say BOOZE? Hell yeah! Hmm.. that was just at the tip of my mind.

Maybe I will start each day.. what do you think shall I do first..? Just thinking about it kinda excites me but lazen me more just thinking it.. haha. Stupid. Hey these are just my stupid thoughts right?

BBL :D
These are just my stupid thoughts
GTG- Oneng